Twenty years ago, the world was numb, and dull… today its preparing for a revolution… ME!!
Sounds egoistic don’t it? Well I figured out a little bit of ego will actually do us all good…!
From the past four years I’ve been hearing that “Your birthday this year is special!” (The Sweet 16,The Last kid year- 17,The Legally Adult-e-rated 18, The Last teen 19). Well, it’s the great End-of-a-decade-20!! So here’s the jackpot question- Turning 20? Excited? Nervous? Dunno really… but it at least gives me a reason to write something on this cob-webbed-blog! Hmm… let’s see…
My mom keeps telling “Oh my, seems to me you were born yesterday… time flies!!”. Yes Mom! Just ‘yesterday’ I was a baby hardly a foot long, and today … err… never mind :D !
Every person would claim they had a different childhood? Well, me too :P. I was hardly this lil gal who liked Barbies and dolls… I liked playing hide and seek, jumping over compound walls and terraces, toy sword fighting with cousins… ah, those were the days J. Birthdays then meant choosing what clothes I’d wear, how I’d make my hair and the best part for me- choosing which candy to distribute at school! Lol!
And the hot shot question- early teens? You wouldn’t believe this but I hardly remember anything! Most gal friends around me did have great fantasies about the usual prince-charming-on-a-white-horse-sweep-off-feet-blah blah… mine was more of a great green Martian coming on a flying saucer which pulls me into that beam of light, so we cud go off to discover a new planet (Trust me, now it seems nerdy to me! :-P)(I think I still have that essay somewhere in my files). And oh! I am actually Lol-in at this: School Prefect!! Lmao!!
High School--- searching---- Error- file missing- Please check the File name and retry------(Keywords- Pokémon, Dhanavantri Vana, SOS, Kerala, Pershanal diary, Friend fights, Incomplete workbooks(Julius Caesar and Total English!), SPORTS!!(yay!), dance competitions, life skills (Sultan-*swoon*), Crush(es), LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAABBBBBB ,last bench masti!)
It was after all this that things began to get weee bit difficult. For everyone na? you choose what you want to become in life (‘Choose’ is an overstatement. Its mostly taking what gets thrown at you). Options tho bahut hai boss, unka choice karna zaroori tha. But as they say, time heals best. And for that all we need is patience (The ONE thing in life that Shenoy horribly lacks….)
The introspection and the deep thought sessions and the…. pause… let’s not make this drama man- I just figured this out- being a big mouth, I earned a lotta frens, but being an observer, I saw that very few of these ppl are the ones I am actually meant to be with. There are some moments I am proud of… and Many many many more that I regret… terribly… some things to laugh at, some things that hurt bad… but these moments are what define me today. This Is a general thing, isn’t it?. And today there are things that bring out the very insecure person in me(yup, I am… very…). Well I’ve fought em b4, and I will fight em now!
Some part of me says I would have been a different person…. A very different individual. I’m sure all of you will agree that there are many things around that’ll pull us down. Try to force us to do things their way. But at the end of the day, those who succumb will continue to remain at the start. Those who fight, they’re the ones that’ll dodge the snakes, jump over ladders and reach the point 100- Winner! So the question again- Turning 20? Excited? Nervous? Blah blah?---- What the hell! Happy Birthday to me!! :-D
